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INFLUENCES (bad and good) They call him Hercule and The Superficial...Because you're ugly! and NIN and my pick tures May 2006
 
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Mar. 27th, 2006 05:48 pm
Shut me up.

Hello all you people out there in the digital world.
Why can I not update my journal as much as I used to, I wonder...
I used to complain all the time about things that I really couldn't change. Doing that can fill up a page or two pretty quick. But I just don't care about things I don't care about, if that makes any sense. It just feels like all I was doing was making excuses; which I've found we mostly do in cases where we feel as though we were wronged, accused of doing wrong, or believe we have done wrong. Why is it that we never try and explain away good deeds?
I don't think that me writing this is really either good or bad. It's just like a form of a personal mental evaluation. And it's all in how you take it. I'm really talking to myself as much as any of you.
I told a friend of mine recently about what I considered a real right and wrong. And the picture I painted was this: Imagine a man or woman is caught in the middle of a flowing, rapid river. Apparantly on the verge of drowning and holding on for dear life. You might know this person, or you might not. Inside you will be two choices. One will be to help the person, despite risks to your own self, and two will be to save yourself, it's already too late anyways. In all honesty, self-preservation is a very powerful instinct. So you might think that you would initially choose to save yourself. Then you might think that all is not lost and you should help the person. But what I find interesting is that in your mind there will be a third thing that tells you to forget yourself and save the person because it is the right thing to do. This thing that judges between the two feelings cannot be either of them. That's like saying that a sheet of paper with musical notes on them is a note of music itself.
I do believe in a real right and a real wrong. A great deal of what I've thought in the past, though I've liked saying it and writing it, has been geared towards negativity. And I could just go on and on about things that I don't like. This might sound strange, but I've only ever done that when I wasn't at peace or on drugs. When I am happy, I just am, and I enjoy and I listen. I laugh and share and do things I like. That's where I am now. Not complaining. Not condemning. Even though there are things I hate about this world, and people who get on my last nerve, I don't think I have to be a slave to those things. So I won't. I just want you to know that. And I hope everyone is, or will be, doing great.

Current Mood: calm calm
Current Music: nothing right now.

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